cleaning is a good thing

I'm in a MUCH BETTER mood tonight than I was last night.  Should I tell about last night. Eh, I promised to be honest so dammit, I have to.

Somebody picked my squash in my plot.  They did a rather messy job and as a result my plants are ruined and no more squash will be coming forth from my lovely garden. Sigh................

I leave the Garden and who do I see but Michael McGreal walking along someplace dressed nicely and carrying some bags.  I'm feeling hurt because I think that he's probably on his way to a date being so nicely dressed and the bag probably contains clothes for his night out but duh.......I forgot about Lucky.  He can't stay out and forget about Lucky.  Anyway, he sees me and promptly turns around and heads back to Serenity or in that direction.  I just keep going towards the bus stop since that was my destination anyway.

I get to the subway and as I'm going to get a seat, this chubby black girl pushes me aside to get her fat ass a seat. As I go to the next one, her skinny and arrogant friend puts her bags right where I was going to sit.  I really have had enough of bullshit. From hearing Sylvia all day at work and seeing her smirking when Olga was busting chops at me to seeing Michael being an idiot yet again.

I picked up her bags and slammed them in the seat next to her friend.  No real reason for it, I just snapped.   She goes off and I just tell her, "yeah, I touched your stupid bags, its a moot point to tell me not to touch them when I did already. So, shut the fuck up"

Ohhh, she was not happy at all and kept ranting and her friend telling her that I'm crazy.  Those little bitches.  I provoke her, hoping that she tires to hit me so that I can knock the shit out of her.  Keep in mind folks, I haven't had a drink since Sunday morning.  Ummm, yeah, I had a beer for breakfast on Sunday and thats all, okay?   So, anyway, I'm sitting there seething and started wondering when was my period due.

I go to work today and see that I am due next week.  Hence the evilness, I'm in the throes of a particularly ugly pre menstrual temper tantrum.  I've gotten them since, heh, before I got my period.   It happens every so often but actually much more times since I hit my mid thirties.

I got sick at work so I didn't go to my therapist today or my photography booking.  I did bring home a new chair and I'm sitting in it right now.  I also spent quite a bit of time cleaning my kitchen tonight.  I'm rather happy about that.  Its almost clean, then all I have to do is clean my living room and do all the laundry and my apartment will be great.

I'm burning incense now and I'm very sleepy.  Life is good. I have to deal.  Good night, All!!!!