Melancholy

Its so hot and I just can't sleep so I'm playing melancholic music hoping it will drive me to despair and then sleep.   No, because the meds are working and I'm rather enjoying my melancholy tonight.   So, the songs play on, melodic bittersweet symphonies and Angels singing their songs of love and I'm here.  Are you here?     Nobody is here, nobody except the weirdos who managed to find this site.   its okay, I don't mind sharing my angst.  I am always angst ridden after sex. I don't know why.  And the lovely guy person is so sweet tonight and is reading in the kitchen as I type away and play melancholy music.  He is so patient. I can't believe I was going to cheat on him just because I was frustrated when he's the best thing that has happened to me in such a long time.