Okay, I've been spending most of the past week and a half feeling sorry for myself and making myself miserable over this fool. I'm making an attempt to stem the self loathing and crawling to him. I still can't believe that I hit him. I feel so bad about that but the creep deserved it. I should have slugged him more. The way he cowered, I know I would've gotten away with it. Actually, that is such fucked up behavior. I never would've thought that I'd act like such a moron. I was hurt though. shit. he got to hurt me. over and over again. It just isn't fair.