Good morning all, not much to say today. My dad is at Long Island Jewish Hospital getting a blood transfusion today. He has cancer. I think he's on his way to his heavenly reward. I'm sad about it but I'm also confused. I'm going to see him to offer my strength but I feel weird because he never apologized for molesting me when I was sixteen. He destroyed the best friendship I have ever had with a man and all I have done was love him. I don't mean to be selfish because the man is sick and dying but damn, all he had to do was say that he loved me and that he was sorry. I can see that it will never happen and that I have to be the dutiful daughter and just let it go but man, I hurt.
In other news, I have no idea whats going on at East Ninth Street in the LES and maybe its just as well. I miss that guy though but as I said before my bedroom is a mess. I need to take care of myself before I can take care of others. Especially others who are rejecting me anyway.
MESSAGE OF THE DAY: LOVE YOURSELF!!!!!!!!
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